Another less than happy one and a half hours of exhausting emotions and crying; please any one reading this never underestimate hormones or assume pregnancy is a joyful time for all. We want this baby SO much, we’ve tried SO hard for him and yet… and yet I have been a nervous wreck over the last few months and dont show any signs of mellowing as yet!

Its hard not knowing or understanding your body and mind; in someways I find myself turning my back on God in embarrassment and in others I lean to Him so much more, realising everything i have is from Him; my husband, jo, house, our baby, my life. I cant be angry or upset with Hi because I know His plan is bigger and better and I am nothing without him and all this is for a reason. The tears are allowed to flow, mopped up by Adrian and myself and we look towards the solution- antidepressants/ hospital support/ Gods strength? to put this (me) all right again.

• Prayer for Pregnancy.

Dearest Mary, I look to you now for the help of your maternal love. You understand my trials as an expectant mother. You bore Jesus in your womb. You know the doubts and anxieties that beset me; you know the bodily suffering I endure. Like you, may I turn all these sorrows into joy. You overcame anxiety by a loving trust in God; you overcame doubt by gentle resignation to His will.
Your motherhood lifted your mind above earth and kept it close to God.
So speak to Jesus now with me, beloved Mother, as I seek prayerfully to learn to bear the trials of motherhood with joy.
Mother of Perpetual Help, Pray for me!

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