Another less than happy one and a half hours of exhausting emotions and crying; please any one reading this never underestimate hormones or assume pregnancy is a joyful time for all. We want this baby SO much, we’ve tried SO hard for him and yet… and yet I have been a nervous wreck over the last few months and dont show any signs of mellowing as yet!
Its hard not knowing or understanding your body and mind; in someways I find myself turning my back on God in embarrassment and in others I lean to Him so much more, realising everything i have is from Him; my husband, jo, house, our baby, my life. I cant be angry or upset with Hi because I know His plan is bigger and better and I am nothing without him and all this is for a reason. The tears are allowed to flow, mopped up by Adrian and myself and we look towards the solution- antidepressants/ hospital support/ Gods strength? to put this (me) all right again.