The calm after the storm, I felt emotionally drained today but there was a sense of peace and tranquility after the tumultuous evening the night before- its not good having a storm inside your head there’s no space for the devastation afterwards! But the weakness mad me stronger too; I started the day with a walk in beautiful sunshine, drove off to an alright day at work, a day with more...
Another less than happy one and a half hours of exhausting emotions and crying; please any one reading this never underestimate hormones or assume pregnancy is a joyful time for all. We want this baby SO much, we’ve tried SO hard for him and yet… and yet I have been a nervous wreck over the last few months and dont show any signs of mellowing as yet! Its hard not knowing or...
I feel my life has three challenges at present; not to worry and question our pregnancy, to love my body and in doing so pass that love and nurturing onto our baby and finally to love and not be frustrated by one of my work colleagues, who drives me a bit crazy. I’m not doing terribly well in any of those, but God has given me a greater peace on the first two in the last day or two so all...
Prayer for Pregnancy. Dearest Mary, I look to you now for the help of your maternal love. You understand my trials as an expectant mother. You bore Jesus in your womb. You know the doubts and anxieties that beset me; you know the bodily suffering I endure. Like you, may I turn all these sorrows into joy. You overcame anxiety by a loving trust in God; you overcame doubt by gentle resignation to...
If you are a Christian and the first word people...
I aspire to be defined!
You say "I can't go on."
redeemedandreflective: But God says: “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
A new Blog
God is amazing and the holiday has renewed me! Eating is back on Track, I truely found God again and feel so inspired that i no longer feel that I need to write under this heading, so…. Moving on to ‘Living in Gods spirit’ hurray!
Journeying back to before it began
About to embark on a flight and for the last 24 Hours I’ve been ‘good’, to reward me I have a nasty headache, as I don’t seem to shy from pain I can’t understand why certain pains get to me more than others? This journey is an opportunity to go back in time, to when food was a friend and pleasure, not a sibling to guilt and remorse and to when my mind and body were...
Path to freedom
Lord, please forgive me for not trusting you to help me with my eating disorder. Forgive me for trying all this time to do this on my own and shutting you out of this part of my life. I repent today from unbelief; please help me to believe that you can heal me. I stand on your Word today that says ‘…with God all things are possible’(Matthew 19:26) I will no longer believe the lies of the...